Blasé.

8,000 miles is a long way.
But that’s where you are.
I’ve really gotten to know you well over the last year or so.
And over the course of that year, I’ve seen you twice, in person.
But I feel like I know you so well.

I truly wish for a relationship with you. But the distance just won’t cut it.
Not to mention what he would think anyway.
But I don’t care. I just know that if you were here, we’d be together.

Its just crazy to think I won’t see you for probably another 8 months.
Its almost crazy talk when you mention vacationing together one day, but honestly, I promise, if I’m single then, I’ll do it. In a heartbeat.
And if I’m not, I hope for a wonderful friendship with you, as long as that were what you wanted.

Miss you, friend.

(Trust me, if I had the extra money, I’d come visit you.)

“I, Tiresias,/ Blind and throbbing between two lives…”

Tiresias said this when he was torn between his childhood home in Bombay and his new existence in Toronto. Tiresias, dude, I can relate. 

For those who don’t know, my parents are in the process of a divorce. My dad left last December and moved in with his girlfriend in Katy. They live in a big two-story house with plenty of space (2 extra “spare” bedrooms that no one uses). My mom’s house is a one-story with 5 people already living there (my mom, brother, sister, niece, and cousin). So, naturally, the answer of where to stay is obvious, right?…Well, that honsetly couldn’t be farther from the truth.

Complications include: my mom wanting me to stay with her at the Sugar Land house. I also work at Saltgrass, which is 20 minutes from the SL house, but a good 30-35 minutes from the Katy house. I don’t get along with my mom well. I’m comfortable around the “new family” in Katy. There’s constant arguing and/or fighting going on at the SL house. There’s not always stuff to do at either house. The Katy house is far from all my old friends, who all mostly live in Sugar Land. Both have their ups and downs of course.

The main problem is that I know that my mom is going to be upset if I stay with my dad. Only because she feels that she lost my dad already, she doesn’t want to lose another part of her life. And I understand that. Completely. But…she just doesn’t want to see that staying with my dad would just be so much better for me. I’d have the privacy of my own room, not so much fighting, not so many hurtful words thrown around…I’d be happier, honsetly. And it’s not like I’m never going to go see my mom often, cause I plan on going visit her. Just the way she sees it and talks about it like it would be such a horrible thing to do to move in with my dad over the holiday breaks and summer…it makes me feel so guilty and makes the decision that much harder.

As if moving away to college, working hard to make money for the things I want, and my recent breakup weren’t hard enough…

3 little birds sat on my window, and they told me I don’t need to worry.

Just go ahead let your hair down.

You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Darius Rucker

He didn’t have to wake up
He’d been up all night
Lying there in bed and listening
To his newborn baby cry
He makes a pot of coffee
He splashes water on his face
His wife gives him a kiss and says,
“It’s gonna be okay”

“It won’t be like this for long
One day we’ll look back laughing
At the week we brought her home
This phase is gonna fly by
So baby, just hold on
It won’t be like this for long”

Four years later, ‘bout 4:30
She’s crawling in their bed
And when he drops her off at pre-school
She’s clinging to his leg
The teacher peels her off of him
He says, “What can I do?”
She says, “Now, don’t you worry
This’ll only last a week or two”

“It won’t be like this for long
One day soon you’ll drop her off
And she won’t even know you’re gone
This phase is gonna fly by
If you can just hold on
It won’t be like this for long”

Someday soon she’ll be a teenager
And at times, he’ll think she hates him
And he’ll walk her down the aisle
And raise her veil,
But right now she’s up and cryin’
And the truth is that he don’t mind
As he kisses her goodnight
And she says her prayers

He lays down there beside her
Till her eyes are finally closed
And just watching her it breaks his heart
‘Cause he already knows

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon that little girl is gonna be
All grown up and gone
And this phase is gonna fly by
So he’s trying to hold on
It won’t be like this for long
It won’t be like this for long

This song is crap. :[

I like this song. :]